Welcome 2006

2005.  Exit Stage Left. 
2006.  Enter Stage Right.

It was a good year.  Despite my sucky financials, it was a good year long adventure.

I learned a lot.  Seen a lot.  Taught a lot.

I met a lot of people.  And met with a lot of old faces.

I opened a few chapters.  And closed some.

I am praying this new year be as good to me as the last, and to my financials.

JANUARY 1, 2006

I started my day switching the TV on.  First movie I saw, “FINDING NEMO”.  It never fails.  Like Edward Scissorhands, it made me cry over and over again.  Father Issues?  Yeah I HAD a lot.  HAD.

Here I am right now, writing about it.  But that’s not really the topic of my blog today.

Like every person in the whole world, January 1st is a great day to re-invent yourself.  It’s the invisible restart button of your personality.  You say this year I’ll do this and that and stop this and that.  And Every year I join the bandwagon and accomplish none of it.  So I thought, maybe I should write it in a blog to remember it.  Publish it for everyone to see.  A reminder that will serve as a gauge if I have done something great every quarter.

FIXED PURPOSE

Resolution also means Determination and Determination is a Fixed Purpose.

Here are my Top Ten Resolution.

10.  Wash the dishes immediately after eating.


There is only one thing I do at home.  I don’t wash the laundry as it gets me all out of breath by the end of the day (Pity too as I enjoy doing laundry).  I don’t iron clothes as it brigns out the OC-nitpicking side of me slowing down the process and I end up ironing only one piece of clothing.  I don’t cook.  Not that I couldn’t (I remember cooking for TC lunch and dinner, ask Rez).  I just hate my kitchen and it drives me nuts when I coudn’t find a place to chop my onions.  Hence I’m left with Dishwashing and still I end up procrastinating the damn chore.

9.  Start cooking again.


I used to cook.  Really, I did.  Before I went to live in Catalan, I cooked for a great number of people known as the Thespian Cirlce.  Not as often as I want to as we all took turns in that chore.  But as soon as I stepped in Catalan, there was always somebody to cook for me and I lost the skill.  I couldn’t even remember the recepes I used to cook.  Heck, I don’t even remember how to do omelets anymore.  Time to unleash cooking master dek.

8.  I shall consistently blog for better or worse in all my 6 blog sites.


I started blogging 2005.  I now just have to make it consistent.  Cheap Thrill Seekers have to be updated everytime I get an interesting pic.  Jologs should be updated once a week and if things are good within the first quarter improve to 2x a week.  Faeries and Demons, everytime I get a worthy dream write it down in a notebook immediately and transfer in the site.  LJ as a daily exercise, anything and everything interesting about me.  Multiply as a daily exercise, anything and everything interesting I think of.  And Homebound, bi-weekly all chuvaness in my household, my harem, my sons and everybody else in the dek-verse.

7. Keep in touch


Three years I was in hiding.  Three years I let go of people I loved and took care of me all those years in UPLB pre-cirsis days.  Three years I have garnered another set of people who take good care of me and love me despite of who I am and the shame I went through.  Unmask dek and let everybody see I’m healed and I’m new.  I have to prove to myself all the love and taking care of is worth it to the people in my past, my present and the people in my future.

6.  Treat everything with a sense of Urgency.


My mom has an urgency addiction.  Sadly, I, on the other hand, am too lax in any discipline that procrastinating is already synonimous to my name.  My mom should rub off some of that addiction on me.

5. Make my mom feel special for a change.


EEEEEEKKK!!! This will be hard, my mom has the grand delusion that one day I’ll lie to her and say Sugar is actually her guardian.  She doesn’t believe in my belief and what I see and she doesn’t listen to what I’m saying.  However, this could be the last year she’ll be with us.  I had told her 2004 that all her VISA application will be rejected.  I told her her annulment will not be done in 6 months.  I told her she will not be able to leave for the USA within 2005.  But I also said that they’d be able to re-apply for the VISA by November.  That has happened.  Let’s see if my gut feeling will be proven right again.  She will get her VISA around end of April or start of May and she will leave us around end of May or early June (depends on where she wants to spend her birthday, but somehow I think she’ll spend it here).  The future is always so fickle.  Sometimes SUGAR-coating is better to make one feel better.

 
4. Compartmentalizing, Consistency, Commitment


Paolo J. has so many plans of his own.  I myself have many plans of my own.  But some of those plans coincide.  Now we really don’t have any problem with that.  I do, however, have a problem with the triple C.  I need to learn how to compartmentalize my life, stay consistent in my work and keep the commitments I make.  Everything will turn out for the best.  I know it.  It is time to build the empire.  It is time to start somewhere for next decade’s World Domination.

3. Take better care fo your self.

Morbid dek came back last night.  Images of impossible bullets flying in our window and hitting me in the head plagued my brain until I left the window and stayed sitted in the dinning.  But unlike before, I have no hopes of dying anymore.  Angsty dek no longer resides this body.  I need to slim down, tone up and be very beautiful.  I know I am.  I need to stop seeking for someone who will say it, and instead start making everyone see it.

2. Write, write, write.



I’ve got to finish my stories.  As soon as I’m done with my January 30th deadline, I will consistently write all those stories stocked in my head.  Time to unleash my children.  So that means my dear dear players, we will continue playing on February, and the Writers guild will be active for now.

And the number 1 Resolution to take in 2006 is …



1. Let go and move on.